This weekend I haven't been home to weigh myself for my weigh-in, but I don't think posting a proper one is a good idea this week. I have been in some serious payback and working all week so adding to that payback and generally just running myself into, through and beyond the ground. One relapse lead to another - fatigue lead to binging and binging lead to purging. I'm worried that if I weigh myself and I've lost weight this week it might reinforce bulimic behaviours and I
really don't want to go down that road again - I like having teeth.
Picture taken from my Why Bulimia Sucks zine available here.
(colour copies will be up again soon)
I've also treated myself and have been treated this week. Soul food has been essential, so have some pictures of it (the food of choice shouldn't surprise anyone that knows me in real life):
There's nothing wrong with being too ill to make an effort to lose weight. I'd rather be fat than bulimic. I'd rather be able to work than not.
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